New Website

I've decided to try and make my own website.

Click here

I'm using the Wordpress platform in making my new website, and to be honest. I'm not yet really comfortable with it since I'm not into editing server stuff here and there that much yet. (Yes, I want to be geeky in this field ahahaha)

I'm also trying to find out how to import my blogs here to there. I always get an error connection everytime I try to do that.

So, expect that this site will not be updated that much already ( duh, hindi naman talaga 'to updated palagi ee! lol) since I will start ranting on my new site.

Goodluck to me! :)

Insensitive

It is very disappointing to find out that sometimes the most important people to you become the most insensitive persons around.

What's worse is when you become the same towards them.

Just think of the outcome.

Disappointments

Things did not turn out as expected.

I just really hate it.

I expected too much, I waited too long,

But in the end, all goes into nothingness.

Ang Pangarap at Bangungot ng Isang Dalaga

Para sa isang babae, ang debut ang pinakamahalagang kaarawan sa buhay niya.

Ngunit, kadalasan, nauuwi lang sa pagkadismaya ang mga handaang ito. Ang ilan sa mga dahilan ay ang mga sumusunod:
- hindi pumunta lahat ng inimbitahan/ kaunti lang ang pumunta (tapos yung mga mahahalagang tao pa para sa dalaga ang hindi nakapunta)
- hindi naging maayos ang takbo ng pagdiriwang sa kabila ng ginawang paghahanda
- hindi nakakuha ng maraming regalo ang dalaga
- hindi masarap ang pagkain na inihanda
- nasira ang tiyan ng dalaga at kailangan niyang maglabas ng sama ng loob
- panget ang escort ng dalaga
- may bisitang higit na maganda ang damit kumpara sa dalaga

(biro lang ang huling 5,ngunit nakakainis naman rin talaga kung mangyayari ito)

Dahil ayaw ko mangyari sa akin ang mga yan, hindi ko na rin ginustong magkaroon ng handaan (as in ung naka-gown ka at nangangalay sa suot na heels). Higit na praktikal din sa tingin ko ang ginawa kong hakbang, dahil hindi ko na kailangang mataranta sa paghahandang kaakibat ng pagkakaroon nito.

Noong una, mukhang hindi ko nga matatamo ang mga nakalista sa itaas, at ako'y natuwa. Ngunit ngayon, 'tila nangyayari na ang mga iyon sa akin.

Nakalulungkot. Nakadidismaya lalo.

Ngunit wala akong magagawa, kahit umiyak pa ako (na ginawa ko na nga), hindi naman mangyayari na bigla na lang matutupad ang mga hiling ko.*

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*marami ito, at hindi bagay na materyal =D

2009

Happy is the year that was and will be =D

Merry New Year.

Sentiments

It was a silent and rainy Christmas.

While most people are kept warm in their homes and feasting on their sumptuous Noche Buena, others simply sleep the night away on the streets, trying to ignore the cold wind and pretending to feel full while their tummies groan in hunger.

While some well-off kids are busy opening their Christmas presents, poor kids are patiently waiting for Santa Claus to come, until they fall asleep and wake up the next day realizing that Santa was not real at all.


And as time passes by, things like this are getting harder to ignore.

Problems and Algorithms

It is not unusual for students like me to experience difficulty in budgeting their small allowance. Moreover, it is not unusual for us to feel very depressed when we can't buy anything we like - or what we actually need - because of such scarcity. I know this does not apply to all students, especially to some of my schoolmates. (Yes, only some, because I know lots of well-off kids in our school whose allowances are not really that humongous, while others simply spend their money very wisely, kuripot in a sense) Nevertheless, this is a fact.

Depressing? Indeed, and I and my close friends are trying every strategy to save some amount, and so far I it seems that we have not found the efficient and effective algorithm yet.

I once heard that when you cannot solve a certain problem, it may mean that it is not a problem at all - that it is actually a reality which cannot be changed. I know it sounds pathetic, but some people who are experiencing this problem similar to ours in a greater degree seem to see already it in that way, particularly those who are very unfortunate when it comes to financial resources.

The stories are the same: a family comprised of six children has only around a hundred pesos, or even less, to spend for the whole day, and sometimes they don't even have the money to buy for any food; children are walking aimlessly along the streets like stray dogs asking people for their leftovers; a pregnant mother together with her another child is walking along the busy and dangerous streets of the city asking for your change; and sadly, these seem to be more of a postulate which cannot be changed for most of us rather than something that is to be refuted and solved correctly.

Truly, for youngsters like me having the similar dilemma, it is very tempting to just ignore these. But upon thinking deeply, these happenings do actually explain, though in an implicit manner, the problems students like me experience.

Look at the bigger problem and solve it by focusing on the smaller details: I think this should be the basis of what all of us - not only students - should do.